Day without a penny !!

The time had arrived atlast, yes my date of return to India was officially anounced and I almost was over joyed for my return ... The first hard task placed in front of me was to vacate my house and get back the advance .. It was a very big challenge, quite easy for one to imagine how messy a house occupied by 3 lazy bachelors would look like .. It almost looked as if some tycoon has struck in the living room leaving our clothes all around .. Kitchen looked as if an abandoned hotel was suddenly re-opened ..
So entire focus was on cleaning the house and nothing else was running around ..

Took two days off officially and shredded my calories by painiting, washing, vaccuming the house .. It was almost done the day before the inspection,just was making sure that nothing remains in the house .. So was vigorously packing all my stuffs and was moving it all to my temporary new house ..I believed nothing should be left out and wanted it to be a totally empty house

So was making a final check list on what all still needed for the preceding day  ...  So prepared a list which included Milk,Coffee powder,some frozen food for dinner ... I was very much concerned about the coffee factor, traditionally built in that way to sip coffee when my day starts .. Apart donated rest of all consumable stuff to my friend

End of that day only the garbage dumps, food for that night and clothes for the next morning remained in the house .. So thought next morning would not trouble me much and everything would go at ease ...

In a day when everything is going wrong against you, then you have no other choice left out apart from smiling at yourself ..Such a kind of day it was ...The fresh morning began with Call out for a Priority issue, two of the production systems went down and to make it more worse the internet connection was pulled off on the previous day itself by my respectable service provider .. So had no other option left out, called my lead and told my situation and as a final touch told him that I need leave again today to clean the house..He granted it too (After all he had visited my house plenty of time) ...

So when all set ,just thought of starting the day  with a fresh note .. Have a cup of fresh coffee ... Just started my preparation and then noticed Mr  'Sugar' vacated my house already, the day before I packed sugar with other things .. So another annoying factor added to the column .... Just was making check list with the day's work .. Generously asked my room mate to proceed to office, thinking it is going to be an easy one man show ..

Well there begun my final session in the house with a mission to earn back 600£ (advance amount) .. My toughness in approaching it was going down each hour .. I was all alone, no internet , no laptop, no music player, no friends too which altogether made me tired not even the garbage work .. Mid day arrived, accidently saw me over the mirror and for a moment thought as if my profession changed to plumber or painter .. I looked exactly the same, my dress with patch of paint all over gave me such a graceful look ..

The final hard think came, I need to clear the garbage bags that was collected for the past 2 days .. If it was India,surely an easiest among the task, but the case was different here .. There is a bin room, in which only the specified garbage can be thrown (bottles,plastics,papers) for everything else we need to go to place some 4 miles away and dump them there ... Thought of asking my regular cab driver(some ten big bags)  to come and help me for this .. Just before I made the call, I realized that Mr Wallet was even moved to the new house ..

That moment only I realized that I didn't even have a single penny with me !!! It was almost 2pm and in another 2 hours, I have the inspection ... Just thought of other options left out to get some money, but unfortunately I had no way out .. All my colleagues nearby were at office and no one else I knew was there .. I felt the same way how 'Nayagan Kamal' felt when asked 'Thatha neengae nalavara ketavara' .... Same touch , though laughter was more ...

India owed Pakistan and made an agreement of settlement at later point ... Yes my  regular cab driver is from Pakistan, explained him about my situation ... The poor form of the day continued further, he told that he was held up somewhere else and told me that he would send someone else for this .. Then came my saviour !! an unknown cab driver ...

After dumping all the garbage into the car, I got into the cab .. .Immediately asked the man, whether the other driver told him about my situation .. He said 'Yes' .. Uff one hurdle crossed I thought .. On the way to the dump yard, suddenly a big doubt aroused in me... Do we need to pay anything in there to dump these things and immediately checked with the Cab driver, to which he answered in detail that too in HINDI .... I stopped him and told him 'Hindi Nahi maalum' and then he laughed, but that point I did not realize the meaning of it ..
Again I asked the same question and again he started answering in hindi and now I understood the meaning of his smile, yes he don't know English

'GOD valikuthu ...azhuthuduvaen...' vadivel's dialogue stuck my head .... So I was left with no option apart from facing the situation .. I was lucky for the first time on that day, I was able to dump things there for free of cost... Bit relieved and returned home in the same cab ...

Almost all done and refreshed myself and changed to formal to give them an impression that I just returned back from office .. I was rehearsing myself with what all I need to hide in the house and how to deviate if asked about some patch and what if they ask about the paint patches which I made .. It was more or else preparing the same way like how I used to do for my viva session ..

The climax of the day reached, when the guy from letting agent arrived .. He exactly took just 10 minutes to check the entire house and noticed very very minimal stuffs of the huge recovery made ... He said 'All done' .. I got shocked, I just spent more than a week to plan and entire 2 days to clean, but this stupid guy took just ten minutes Ulathai allitha dialogue'Tempo laam vechu kadathirukoom da'  ran through my mind.. I knew how much faulty things were there around the house and what all he missed .. But still the goal was achieved for that moment and had a big relief ......End of the day, again I was thinking how I survived the whole day without a penny !! and took the picks of my own house have it as proof to myself as how it was

Solitude ...

Should be more than a year before when I started getting a hunch how will I manage or learn to live alone  without friends, relations and my city, country ... That was the time when I was totally filled with excitement and anxiety on taking up the onsite opportunity which hence forth made me blind by not thinking about the life of mine at that time . Though my world was smaller one still had so many cherishable moments ..Always subdued with loved ones, to mean exactly I love being surrounded by mere humans..

Originating from a family, where always  encircled with relations, it is tough to imagine an odd circumstance alone ..Scenes such  that when I wake up in the morning get to see.. my cousins getting ready to school, my chiti helping my sister to comb her hair ... My mother preparing breakfast for my dad and coffee for my chitapa and my paati who sits in the corner doing her morning bajans always happens in routine...My school days and even my college days had similar kind of scenes and never made me to feel alone ...

First instance when I stepped out of that little bunch was right after my college days .. Exactly by 2008, considering it I was lucky even here ...managed to get tied with the same guys, with whom I used to roam right from my school days.... My room mates and even my colleagues were the same old guys...To state, chap with whom I did my 1st standard wandered with me as a room mate. Hence the people within the bunch changed ,but the crowd remained as always ... So if you had asked me the definition of Solitude by that time, I never even would have searched for it ...I had no necessity to search for torch, since I did not find it dark till then..  The word 'Alone' was always missing in my life

Never even was interested to know whether I will enjoy loneliness or would be able to live with it. All the pieces of my Life puzzle was shuffled and handed over to me in terms of  'Onsite' opportunity..Could not conclude even now whether it is an opportunity or curse ... Yeah in a matter of 12 to 15 months all the chapters of my 24 years journey was overwritten and made upside down... It took quite a time to feel the pinch of 'Loneliness' .. It was altogether a different journey for me, every one and everything was new to me ..The country, people and between these myself .. The transition was incredulous ..

First being lonely was a pain, a challenge and later undeniable fact and now I almost mastered it .. Never imagined such a transition was possible within me...just when I look back and see its just quite amazing ...
Emptiness around me made to search for things and knowledge deep inside me ...Some sort clarity I perceived through it ..

For instance whenever I am down with my thoughts and not left alone , it was made easy for me to come out of that..It was quite easy to just get it diverted ...But I am all alone when I am down with my thought, I had to handle it in on my own... Being lonely made me to think and focus on things which I had never ever dare to touch ...I was forced to face the fact and handle it .. Started thinking deep into the fact , few among many attempts even fetched me with solution

Its very true that this dark shade of loneliness made me to realize the current phase of my life . The truth of simple life and even gave me ' no more a college guy' attitude ...This lonely phase gave me 'What next' attitude .. The hunt of solitude gave a chance to search about my self  recursively .. I saw my world a step back keeping it bit far away from me .. I was able to see my problems lighter and was able to handle it

Lighter moments with the closed ones was missing all the while and even missed most precious occasions .. Almost this journey about to end, but lot of experience to carry forward .. Now just thinking how well  I can adapt to my world of crowd which I was very much used to ...